Monday, September 20, 2004


I couldn't possibly be more in shock! I am going to be a father! It still seems surreal, though Lauretta and I have known for some time now. What a blessing. When we got to hear the baby's heartbeat last week at the doctor's that really cemented things. This is for real. I am going to be a father! Wait, did i already say that???
I used to think that you had to have it all together to be a spouse and to be a parent. But you know what? All you really need is love, and i have love to give and in abundance. I can't wait to share my life with our child-share my interests and life story with this child, all the while encouraging our child to be who they want to become.
I used to think that i did not want to bring a child into the world, cuz things just get darker and darker it seems from a Christian standpoint. But i do not think this way anymore either. Our child will make a difference just by being who he or she is. I pray His light will shine through him/her.
Yes, i do feel older now. I just turned thirty in March and now this. But i wouldn't trade it for the world. A beautiful, loving wife and now this. I could not ask for more in my life. God has given me much more than i deserve and for this i am truly thankful!